"Simpler, yet more confused"

Alright so i'm reading On The Road right now by Jack Kerouac. It's all about a road trip he took across America in 1947. he does some cool shit got some cool jobs sees alot of cool things. The way he describes cities like LA, San Fran, Denver makes 1947 seems awesome. The more i read, the more i hate what North America is like nowadays.

Everything was so pure back then, it was like a young nieve child coming into his own, still learning the ropes. The world was, in the words of Jim Morrison "simpler yet more confused". Simple in the sense that everything was very easygoing. Whole families of 8 would live in shacks because they didn't take life too seriously, were down to earth, and learned how to deal. Nobody now wants to learn to deal, they all want to complain and baby their way through everything until someone bails them out. The Lazy Generation thats what we are. Our minds are not open to enjoying life while poor. No one nowadays can comprehend happiness without money. Does not compute. Everybody thinks that they need this and they need that because the big corporations are putting it in our minds that money equals happiness. Commercials and magazines might promote skinniness, the need of fancy clothes and cars but mostly it all sums up to needing as much money as possible. Not taking the time to enjoy the simple things in life, but rushing past them all, past the dreamers, past the people that are real, to get to the money. Jack talks about living in a barn and picking grapes as a luxury. I myself have been brainwashed by Corporate America to try to get money. At first i thought he was complaining, but then he said how free he could be, hanging out in the sun, feeling the Cali breeze while he worked picking grapes. I realize how amazing that would be. No shirt and tie, no billing reports, no Mr. Boss Man on your back all the time, no hefty paycheck. Everyoen now likes the first 3 but hates the last one. No heft paycheck? Who gives a flying fuck about money. That whole scene seems like the life but no one wants to be poor, everyone thinks they need money. Why? What are you going to buy? Fancy clothes that make you look like a douchebag, a fancy car that goes so fast you can't even see nature as you fly by, a nice pair of rubber boobs on a mop because the only girls that are interested in you are the ones who are actually only really digging your money. That doesn't sound fulfulling at all. Money will buy you the phrase "so what if i'm not happy, i'm rich", and that is so depressing how many people will strive to get that phrase branded into their mind. Back then, in 1947, their was no money to be made. Their were no fancy, suite level jobs to be had really, so everyone did what made them happy, or at least entertained. They went with the flow, Went from motel to motel, scraping up a few bucks, blowing it all on rent, booze, grass and minimal groceries because they had nothing in life to look forwars to. I wish i had that freedom. Everyone always talks about the future and i just want to live like they did in 1947, happy, drunk, carefree and most of all free. They enjoyed every second of every day beacause they didn't have anything to think about in the future. I wish i could have that kind of freedom. Living carefree, day-to-day as if each one if your last. Nowadays, its all about planning. Planning for college, planning for a career, planning for a relationship, planning for the rest of your fucking life. How depressing is that, that your whole life is laid out in front of you like a road map, all you have to do is drive to each destination. I want to live where i say fuck the map, im making my own and I live carefree. doing whatever the fuck I want, money, not even a thought of it in my head except if i will have enough for some booze or grass. I don't just wish for this life, I crave it. I need it. The thought of a nice sunday brunch in my countryside estate in a nice sweater vest and khakis makes me extremely uneasy. The thing is, is that I don't know if i'll be able to avoid all the advertising and road maps and being a training monkey in my shirt and tie, with Mr. Boss Man on my back and that steady paycheck. I've had this thought of money bringing happiness stuffed down my throat my whole life that i don't know if i can avoid it. Some people are scared of living as an adult with no money. I'm scared of having too much. I want to be a poet or open a book store, something that will let me be free to do whatever the hell I want, and doing it all becuase, fuck, what else am i gonna do? Wait until i'm old and poor and can't do anything? No, i just wanna live and forget about numbers, i want live a life of being simpler yet more confused; simpler because i haven't a care in the world, more confused in a agood way as in i have no fucking clue whats waiting for me around the corner, and I love that feeling. We are the lazy generation in a sense that we want everything, without actually doing anything. I'm so glad i'm the opposite. I want nothing, and i want to work for it, doing something I love. I love being simpler yet more confused. There is no more fulfilling feeling in the world.